Mar 6, 2007
There was a visitor in the meadow this morning waiting patiently for
me. At first glance, this new guest seemed inviting as they were dressed
in such finery and appealed to all my senses in such perfectly crafted
ways. I approached without hesitation and began to walk beside this
guest without doubting in the least what may be their purpose. The eyes
were lowered which I took for being shy and submissive to the beauty
in Creation surrounding us there. The head was covered in a beautiful
draping cloth that I assumed was humility and reverence for being in
this beautiful place of prayer. I walked in peace beside this guest
because they seemed so very familiar to me. This connection between
us felt like two very old friends who knew each other and really did
not need shared words between them to truly KNOW one another.
Beneath this blue sky, singing birds and whispering winds, we shared
this time beside each other. I, being the very trusting soul that I
am, did not doubt or question this companionship. Quite the contrary,
I felt as if this friend could hear my thoughts and share theirs too,
on all the events of late.
I began telling this guest about my concerns for the races of people
across Mother Earth not dealing with each other in love and understanding,
let alone with empathy
I spoke of the horrors of war, greed and misuse of power. I pleaded
for an end to the destruction of entire cultures being played out before
us all in some macabre best selling movie fashion.
I cried about the absolute waste of Earth's resources and treasures
that are determining the fate for the humans and creatures that depend
on the stability of the Earth to provide for us all.
I whispered my deepest longing for true peace and compassion between
the warring religious factions.
I turned to gaze into my companions eyes...looking for understanding
of my feelings and thoughts expressed between the two of us. I wanted
confirmation from another being that they too, shared these heart-felt
concerns for the future. I wanted the acceptance that comes from two
friends sharing their inner most concerns.
The guest slowly reached up for the lovely veiling of cloth wrapped
so pleasingly about their head and brought it down with a vicious snapping,
then hurled it upon the ground. In their eyes, I saw their true passion,
but not the kind I had initially perceived. Not in any way, was this
companion what I had thought they were upon meeting them in the pleasing
place of peace I had entered. In total shock and amazement I stood before
this being and wondered what their true intention was.
" I am that which speaks in the quietest moments when you approach
your Creator and you feel unworthy to speak or trust that your words
" I am that which stops you from taking that opportunity to reach
out and take action upon those acts made upon others that brings harm
" I am that which haunts your dreams at night, that which leaves
you with trauma from unkind words or actions placed in your daily path
amongst others of human kind."
" I am that which stops ordinary humanity from becoming the greatest
force for good and uniting peace within all the nations, races and religions."
" I am the beginning and end for perpetual wars between the Nations.
I am that which divides the leaders from their people. I am that which
speaks truths into the ears of those who trust me to be their companion,
only to later reveal my deception."
" I am all of these things and all that you can ever allow me
to be. Walk with me; accept me as you have so willingly done in our
past associations together during your life. You know me well, as I
know all of you."
" My name is FEAR."
I turned away, tears streaming down my face, the disappointment in
myself growing ever deeper. Fear. Yes, I know you, my ever-present companion
in life. I know you all too well. I began to walk away from my "companion"
and as I turned my face to the bright sunshine, I heard the Grandmothers'
words to me again in reminding me of her story she shared one day such
as this one.
"See how the little sparrow will land next to the great Hawk.
Sparrow will sit very near the Hawk at rest upon the same tree branch.
Sparrow will learn of her danger and this threat will become a friend
to her. She will see her danger in a new way...understanding it, learning
from it and knowing her danger as a companion in the sky of life. Remember
this. To KNOW your danger, you must sit carefully next to it long enough
to know it well, so that the next time you are near the danger you will
know what your actions must be."
I thank the Grandmothers and Grandfathers for their teachings. They
sustain us and if we walk with their words close to our hearts, we will
Fear...... how cleverly disguised in beautiful cloaking.
Fear.....how comfortable it has become to us because it feels like
a well-known friend.
Fear....left behind in the meadow to keep itself company this day,
for there is no place for it now....in all that we face and in all that
we do for each other.... it has no place with us as we have known it
before. We must know it in a new way and walk forward in strength and
Wahela Bluejay 2007